I have been wondering what to write about the past week or so. Should I write about how I'm feeling about this whole reducing the meat and dairy thing? I think that might be a good place to start! Suffice it to say, I am having mixed feelings about it in general, but I have been consuming mass quanities of veggies and fruits, which makes me feel good, but I have spiritually rebelled against the giving up of meat and especially dairy.
I feel this may be me prescribing emotional value to my food. That is a little worrisome, because I know that part of my effort to stop dieting is because I value food for reasons other than sustenance. I worry that I don't want to give up meat and dairy, because I am filling some spiritual deficiency with this food. I know I have relatively high cholesterol, why wouldn't I chose the path to better physical health?
I am prescribing that I do some serious prayer and introspection this week on why I am so angry and emotional about cutting back on something that frankly isn't healthy for me. It's not like I am cutting it out forever, I'm just drastically reducing how often I eat it.
As I embark on this introspection, I would challenge you dear reader to do the same. Are you stubbornly clinging to a behavior, or resenting a healthy change, that you know in your heart is better for you? Think about why you persist in this behavior. Why does it "work for us?" What hole in our self esteem, our our spirit are we stuffing with negative patterns?
My body is a temple for my soul and God to reside in. It is more beautiful than any building ever made; but I must treat it like a holy place and sweep out the ravages of the world and negative influences. Here's to self inspection! Good Night!
Ellen
